[20 Dec 2009|11:33pm] sparkly_sunrise  FACT:  I'm only over things for as long as I'm in the mindset of their being far away in time. Eventually I get in a mindset of the past. And that gets me into missing it, because it was just yesterday. FACT: I can't look at old pictures even ones that aren't of happy times, without remembering how I felt. Which would be sad. FACT: I can't cope with the past, ever.  FACT:  I know all the words to your favorite songs, but that doesn't matter so much. FACT: I only miss old relationships and the people in them because I miss being happy. And I associate happiness with these things. Not that I don't miss people for valid reasons, but it's mostly the happiness that used to be there. FACT: I don't write in this journal much anymore. Maybe I should change that. FACT: Old people make me unhappy because they're in a constant memory loop. Or bitter. Like "Get the hell away" guy. FACT:  I know none of my friends are reading this since everyone stopped with this a long time ago. So did. I. FACT: I'm impressed all the noise in my head is letting me say this much without disjointing. FACT:  I can't breathe sometimes, and I blame you, but that's not fair. FACT: There are places I can't go without having a panic attack. FACT:  I'm a lot more sure of things than I used to be. FACT: I hate the existence of leggings in the world.  FACT: I talk about lost way too much. FACT: I wanted people to see my show that didn't. FACT: No one HEARS. FACT: People think I'm better at things than is actually true. FACT: I'm more scared of the past than the future.  FACT: This entry will be forever. FACT: I mean in time elements, not in existence. Nothing exists forever... FACT: I thought it was beautiful when I found out we're all made from stardust. I still do. FACT: I get tired  when I wake up. FACT: I'm really not that into the Beatles. FACT: I don't know what I'm trying to prove here.   post comment

[20 Dec 2009|11:31pm] sparkly_sunrise  FACT:  I'm only over things for as long as I'm in the mindset of their being far away in time. Eventually I get in a mindset of the past. And that gets me into missing it, because it was just yesterday. FACT: I can't look at old pictures even ones that aren't of happy times, without remembering how I felt. Which would be sad. FACT: I can't cope with the past, ever.  FACT:  I know all the words to your favorite songs, but that doesn't matter so much. FACT: I only miss old relationships and the people in them because I miss being happy. And I associate happiness with these things. Not that I don't miss people for valid reasons, but it's mostly the happiness that used to be there. FACT: I don't write in this journal much anymore. Maybe I should change that. FACT: Old people make me unhappy because they're in a constant memory loop. Or bitter. Like "Get the hell away" guy. FACT:  I know none of my friends are reading this since everyone stopped with this a long time ago. So did. I. FACT: I'm impressed all the noise in my head is letting me say this much without disjointing. FACT:  I can't breathe sometimes, and I blame you, but that's not fair. FACT: There are places I can't go without having a panic attack. FACT:  I'm a lot more sure of things than I used to be. FACT: I hate the existence of leggings in the world.  FACT: I talk about lost way too much. FACT: I wanted people to see my show that didn't. FACT: No one HEARS. FACT: People think I'm better at things than is actually true. FACT: I'm more scared of the past than the future.  FACT: This entry will be forever. FACT: I mean in time elements, not in existence. Nothing exists forever... FACT: I thought it was beautiful when I found out we're all made from stardust. I still do. FACT: I get tired  when I wake up. FACT: I'm really not that into the Beatles. FACT: I don't know what I'm trying to prove here.   post comment

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